sunrise, sunrise.

To end this eventful day, I listen to Norah Jones to help me attempt for the 3 time to fall asleep.

I can't sleep.

I am so tired.

This sucks.

As sad as this sounds, I can't sleep alone. If i am not sleeping with AK and I am with the roomie, and if not her, A Green and if not and I am alone - I don't sleep. Or I bring Dre in here but he makes so much noise and wants to leave. But how could I turn down this.



Too cute for life basically.

I woke up this morning with a throbbing head ache - it must have been the beer the night before. Oh, and flats in the winter are not a good idea. Do not do it. It is bad. I don't care how good you want to look, My feet almost fell off last night. But this morning was a hard attempt to get out of bed. After i finally got up, I had to say bye to AK - which I didn't like. But, i am going to windsor on tuesday so it should be fun. Got back to res, ate, and tried to regain proper thoughts. Erik came down to k-town and we drove home which was a sweet road trip.



Then once got home played some GH3. That is just what we do. And visited the Nikster at workie/my work. where she was workin hard like i told her to. hehe!

valentines day.

Today is valentine's day. The hallmark holiday. I remember when i didn't have a date at the time i hated valentines day. Seriously there is no point to it, (omg homecoming just came on on random). But, there is actually no importance for this day other then to show the person you are with how much you care about them. when, i guess if you did it too often it wouldn't be as exciting , but you should do it randomly, and valentines day is just so cheesy. it is lame.

i found a funny picture of a gold fish today.



sometimes i wish i looked like that.

my rant about the typicals.

Today i returned home to the beautiful city of Toronto, honestly i was so excited to be home, I actually missed it. I missed the city i missed my friends, family, all that jazz. I meet up with nat at the Go station which was sweet cause I haven't seen her is forever. She had to work so she left, but it was awesome to see my sister for a while. But, you know i'll see everyone this weekend so i am excited. I meet up with my brothers on front street where we started our expedition to shop. Parked and walked. Out first stop, American apparel and i just have to say one thing. As much as i love it, its contents and the appeal to it, I hate everything about it. I hate the when I go in there I am immediately judged. I mean I can be a hypocrite because i jude people, and i know i do. I don't mean to judge people, but recently i have just become critical of everything. But, As i walk in, so excited from seeing my family and shopping, one of my favorite things to do, i get put into a bad mood. I actually can't have a ridiculous conversation with my family without someone in american apparel adding there opinion to the conversion. Even i don't do that. I know it shouldn't bother me, but it does. They have to be stuck-up enough to not have stupid conversations and be ridiculous. it is really irritating and i wish people would just get over themselves once in a while.


Not even that i am getting sick of american apparel. It is so expensive for stuff i can make for much cheaper. and after today i decided i am not going to buy anything. I still respect it for what it is and what it stands for and think it is a great cause, but especially in kingston, i am sick of wearing the same thing as everyone else. And like the whole 'trend' that comes along with places like american apparel is ridiculous and outrageous.

flustered.

Yeah I am flustered, so what? I actually woke up for my 8:30 tutorial today for art history and realized, in class I am the only only who appreciates photography as silly as it sounds. We talk about how a lot of photography is just documentations or people or events. but like it can be art too, right? like mug shots. They are documentations but what about andy warhols (even though I do like enjoy his work) he made print of mug shots. And out of everything it was his most interesting works.





personally it is like the only thing that is interesting he did.

A Green is sleeping in dana's bed, which I think is silly. Whenever one of us disappear for a night, the other is hear with him, it is sorta just how it works. I have been up since 8 and have done nothign really productive. I've looked at photo's that i could do for my painting and listened to some loud bands and got black tea all over my comforter. Which is awwweessommmeee. so now i am waiting on laundry and empire records to finish down loading.

I have A midterm tonight and I don't know how i feel about it. i studied for a long time last night. So long that i had to stop because i couldn't type properly anymore because everything was misspelled or doubled, basically nonsense.


i tottally forgot i was writing this because i was too busy enjoying old alkaline trio. soo good i miss them, well matt skiba. so cute!

how my mind works.

I am not a very complicated person. In my up most efforts I try to be witty, but instead I think and translate everything through vibrations and vibrant appeal. I am putting all my effort into sitting up straight and studying but with the amount of coffee I have had my mind wonders and i begin to imagine things as outlined sketches. Just think of it as like that movie 'waking life' without the colours and shadows. Simply outlines. Everything is so simple and interesting. everything is just made up out cross hatching and lines. Fun eh?

for my next painting I get to paint anything I want. Fun? errrr hard. Immediately i was going to do an octopus. but then, natty poo helped my locate this beauty.



Get band by the name of Trash Talk, check them out. It is different from the hardcore that is out now, it is good. give them a listen. I am not positive if i will do this painting but the colours are great, most likely it will be something similar to this. Go it alone has some great photos too. But i want something with colour.



I have a midterm tomorrow. and should be working.

my eyes burn.

So I haven't written in a while. I had a very eventful weekend, which started out with a beer, no dinner. awesome. Finally being able to enjoy the extradites of what the local kingston night life has to offer me, I snatch at the chance. Tokyo Police club and the Coast made their way to the lovely town of kingston. The coast opened with a half decent set, the guys were adorable and their music was catchy, basically a lot like TPC. But i got some good photos of them, so it was worth the front row experience.



he was adorable. But, TPC came on. they were good, they have so much energy when they preform which was amazing. The key boardist was actually fascinating to watch, he like flew across the stage making an amazing display and keeping me attentive because i didn't know their new songs that were being played.

I also went to montreal this weekend with the AK, which was super fun, and we at pizza everyday, which was gross, but soooo tastey at the same time. MOntreal seriously is so beautiful, it is like toronto but with greater esthetics's. Shopping wasn't amazing, not different then toronto, if not, not as good. But the hotel we stayed at was balllllaaaa. ;) I want that bed even though it is like like 3 and a half times bigger then the one i have now it is huuuggggeee.

We went to the casino, which was fun but almost died on the way there. Because of the storm the roads were terrible and the taxi driver thought it would be a fun idea to speed and almost hit the side of the wall, like 5 times. annyywaayyy, i didn't win a car or any money but it was fun.

when i got home i had like 3 project to do and almost died. Now I have to start a painting, complete and do well on a mid term for thursday and do an essay for monday that i don't want to do and pretend i am a lesbian for it. :@:@:@:@:@: sldkkjfsdvcsldvh not cool.

i have to clean my room,
byez.

It always put me in the mood.

After hours beyond hours of painting, I can't feel my back or my feet and I am kinda thirsty. Poop. This song Always puts me in the mood for anything. (The teenagers - Homecoming) seriously when they were writing this song, they were prolly like .. let's write a mood changing anthem, cause for realz, it is just way to good. I need a break for this painting business and go see tokyo police club tonight. I am so excited they are coming, finally some entertainment in kingston.

I think there is someone living in the ceiling in the art studio. it is so creepy. There is rustleing and like footsteps. but no actually I am just playing. But it is pretty scary, some times the vents will move and like i feel like the walls are going to fall down on me. and i don't like it.

I think it would look something like this.



LAWLZ11!!! just because it is so weir looking! and secretly minus the red eyes i think it is cute. hahahah hahahahahHQh. so good.

Yesterday nat showed me the biggest circle pit ever. haha, enough said.

When i found the picture of the weird animal haunting the art art studio i found this. they are so cute, and i did an art project on it before.



see you!

its like watching paint dry.

Sit and watch paint dry, honestly is it an interesting process. For my next art project I chose to attempt the bright neon lights casted into the sky, for realz bro. I should be listening to rhapsody right now and singing about knights and swords. But in truth I am bringing the past back, listening to awkward bands from grade 8 and 9. Like NFG, TSL, fullblast, Moneen and then i realized, I still listen to these bands. sicckkkkk.

I watched and american night,are video to, and I miss that band so much. I wish i got to see them before they broke up. Hearing AM/PM is the the highlight of my day everytime i listen to it, because it is so darn good! they were a premium hardcore band that, like all hardcore bands break up. Not fair. I better get to go see the verse. This is not a joke. I miss seeing the energy from the bands and the love from the crowd.

i have to paint until my dayz end.

discovery.

I was lurking the Juxtapoz extremely hard and I found this artist named Andrew Pommier.

at home on a saturday night.

So, it is about 11:40 on a exceptionally nice Saturday night. Not that I can complain, i don't have a fake id, and was unable to enjoy what the classy Ale house had to offer me on a fine night like this. But I choose to stay in a explore the wonders on the internet and frantic downloads to make up for the excitement I have, Unfortunately missed out on. I could say that night was unbearable, but I discovered this wonderful band called Beirut, and they are amazing. It is a mix of Owen Palette meets Devandra with music lessons from members of Grizzly Bear. It is a strong suggestion to check then out, his voice is really unique and the Bango gives it a nice feel. Alos, they make me feel like my exploration through numerous web links feel more like an adventure then a cover for my unimpressive boredom. Not to mention that i am sick, once again. It really doesn't makes any sense. I just got better or started to feel as it i was getting better and NOPE! i am ill and tired and bored, and those three mixed together are never good and could lead to ridiculous results. I have this endless congested feeling and I can't breath, well i can but i hate when you are sleeping and you have to breath through your mouth. You either end up snoring or drooling, both of which are extremely embarrassing and uncomfortable.

Now i have moved on to attacking the downloading program. One, it doesn't work and two, i can never find anything remotely interesting on it when it decides to work. I saw the trailer, well Jek told me about it, this movie called Eagle vs. shark. I heard about it before and it is by the same people as the Squid and the Whale and i did not enjoy that movie. I mean it was good and interesting but after the movie i hated everyone in it and left me feeling uncomfortable. I guess in a way the would classify it as a good movie because in the end i did feel something, whether is was good or bad. Still, maybe i'll give it another chance because everyone seems determined to get it through my head that it is ... sooooooo goooodddddddddddd.

I guess that I could do work and actually get stuff done. I am so far behind in school, i am drowning in work it is unbelievable. To make matters worse I signed up for a Womens studies course. It woudn't be so bad if we actually learned what we are arguing about but no, instead we sit there listening to my professor implant these ideas in our heads that us women are doomed for life. When in my opinion if we stopped dwelling about this things would probably get much better.

Anywhoo, i feel so sick. gn'igt

the end.

As Tall As Lions is probably the best thing to happen in a while. The new like albumish/epish/ songs is so good, Since the Flood. Download it errr, get it soon so damn good. Josh darn it! but Actually it is like inspirational it is so good, well all their music is and this just adds to it and makes it 10 times better, with all the candy in the world! If that makes any sense at all, basically just get it. now!

And latley i just don't understand people, we change so much into these people that we want to be or we think would be better for the other person. How does it come to this? it is like a endless cycle and once you realize the cycle starts all over again. The course changes but you always end up at the same place, and have to ask yourself the same questions. But is there really a need to push everythinh into something important. Like do we really need to make this huge annoying deal out of everything and always be right! nooooo, give it up. Make things what they are, not always important but not useless. I feel likkkkkeee we are trying to hard. Just way to Hard and need to let go.

On another note, i am stressed as hell man. school is so hard and i am so far behind. I have a painting due in a week and i have no clue what to do. External or internal, which or what? It is lame. I have to shower tho.



listenlistenlistenlisten.

i can't get enough.

i just can't get enough of this wombats album, it is so good. i want to see them live so bad, but they are only playing in Europe for the next little while.


I didn't go to class today. Which is not very good, but i am sick so i have a reason not to. Strep throat is really a disgusting thing. my entire tongue is inflamed and i have a giant neck because my glands are so swollen. If i am able to open my mouth all the way, because i can't, i can se eall those gross sores on my glands making them look like blisters on my glands. and gross. it wouln't be so bad if i could just swallow, I cannot eat and when i do it takes me like 3 times the amount of time it normally does, and i am sick of eating soup and like jello to like calm it down.

EFFING@ SHAKESPHERE IS A PIECE OF SHIT! I have been ttrying to get music for the longest time, because kingston is deprived of music stores the carry independent artists and i cannot retrive these albums, it dones't make sense, or basically it is not fair.