head calmer.

band like this remind you what music can become.

The Wooden sky - just a few amazing tracks.
1. The Bird has Flown
2. Darker streets then mine
3. North Dakota
4. poor Caroline
5. when lost at sea
6. Wooden sky

I fear the summer will ruin it all, and I don't want that to happen.

this is me, as a lolcat of course.



i am so tired i can't even think, my eyeballs feel as if they are escaping from their sockets and about to explode.

and i want sushi.

today is a.....day

flip-flop, frappaiccino, Eisley, New found glory, green tea, cardigan, death cab, fun, awesome, picture, get a coffee and sit by the lake, read a book day, not a study, sunglasses, bright colour, knit, walk around, sit outside and play with the dirt, sketch, watermelon :) - or kiwi, picnic, listen to lots and lot of music, feist, as tall as lions, drive around and listen to loud music, coffee, scarf, bangs up, guitar playing, walking and stopping, telling dumb stories, The early november, sit on the steps, cream cheese and cucumber sandwiches, candy - lots of candy, cloud wathcing/bird wathcing, writing song, being with peopl, through you damn frizzbee, origami, pet dogs, relate to squirrels, draw fake tattoos, get milk shakes, talk about lovers, THE SHINS, sing sings in the streets, flats, smoothies!!!, java chip frapz with a shot of mint, whip cream, soup outside - cause it isn't too hot, BBQ"Z omg - i miss those so much, sit on the porch, pretend to get sit, have random destinations, conjure up plans that will never follow through, long talks, old music, ... today is not a study day.

just a few pictures i found while studying.

i was studying for music, and these are all famoous producers in specific genres of music. These pictures are wicked, so i posted them.

my life in a day.

wake up from andrew's -
come home-
shower -
got to class -
eat halfway through art is over -
leave -
no more classes for the rest of the day -
sit -
nip tuck with andrew -
library -
go home -
got to andrews -
sleep -
wake up and do it all over again. :)

but sometimes my extrememly bring schedule is interrupted was alcohol drugs or .... lolcats.com

Just recently.

I fell in love with this album, again.




As tall as lions - into the flood.
1. 505
2. into the flood
3. we are the ones that keep you warm
4. breaker
5. blacked out

into the flood (2) is definitly the best song on the album

i never really will understand.

I guess, i just realized i will never understand what is really going on at the moment. I am tired and just mentally exhausted and i want to go home and be with my family, because in the state, it is the only place i ultimately feel sane. Yet, i have the people i care so much about here, and it would make sense that i would fell that here, but i don't know, maybe i don't know what i want anymore. With school dwindling and my program being destroyed it makes me think of what i could do for the rest of my life, and as it now, it doesn't involve staying here. Sometimes i fell no relations to the people here, in a sense i know that that sounds depressing, but really i am not. i am just fed up with being here.

I miss enjoying time alone. now if i am alone i am bored and mad cause i am not with that person/people and i am sick of the feeling. but i don't want to loose those people i love those people and i couldn't even think of living without them. but, stability comes in different forms then alcohol, drugs, and being friendly.
I really don't want to go home this weekend but i think it would be good for me to leave this bubble behind and go to the one i know best, in oakville. i hate that place but at times like these i know it is the only thing that will make me feel better.

gah enough ranting. i fear what the opposite doesn't feel that same. humm i guess we will never know.

bye bye

today.

I hope this is just temporary, becuase i know nothing else then it. After yesterday and the reminder i miss it more then ever. And now i have somehting like it. and i don't want to continue to lose it all over again. it suck yeah whatever

i miss oakville.
as bad of a place that it is, i miss my family.
kingstin sucks - it is like the bad part of oakville,
but really there is nothing here that i would stay for.
other then my friends, andrew.
Not even the fact i am paying 6 grand to stay here throughout the year.
i would leave.

Right now i am so happy! i actually lovvvvveee doing work it is my favourite thing. I would be even happier if i had sushi because it is sooooo ghud! omg!??!111!!!

oh btw i h8 4NDR3W

it is hailing outside.

ok so, i came to the library to work on some essay stuff and, basicallyy it is hailing and i am so tired and i need a coffee but i can't get one cause it is hailing so bad, Nor can i leave the library to go home because it is so bad outside. odd? i think so. oh and the fact that my essay is about hermaphrodites and society, i am not as happy as i would like to be, there is only so much to say. i am hungry, but not really i just want to eat because i am bored of doing work, but i am so tired. bah! gah!

I felt like being witty.

Even though I so uncomfortable now i will force myslef to get in the shower. Having a bladder infection is actually terrible. Don't get it. All i want to do is drink gallons of water, sleep and sleep. maybe eat. I have so much work to do. and i am tried of it.

So i copied Natty poo because this is the only album that makes me happy. Actually, right now I could listen to it probably over and over and over. and over.



aren't they so cute!

here, listen wisely, fall in love.