Im getting there.

Today i got to the point that i realized that i am at school. It has been 3 almost 4 weeks and today i realized how behind i am and how little i care. I don't know what to expect from school anymore. Last year it almost seemed to be exciting and new and then this year it is just old news and i feel no excitement towards work or projects. You would think that because i am in art that this would be exciting and new and fun - but i just feel like art is being pushed on me and it almost feels time consuming. In total reality what am i going to do after i leave here. Reality? nothing important probably, or i will end up going to school again for something not at all relevant to what i am here for now.
Gahhh, i think it is the absence of everything around me. Or maybe even the load of things around me. Work it probably the number one downfall after school. It is extremely boring and the people are ok. The only reason i am there is because i have a shopping problem and spend to much money on clothes, music, and coffee. It just works out that way i guess.
And in a way i miss home. I miss my family and friends and in a way - i really hate to say this i kind of miss oakville. things just seemed less complicated compared to living here. Money is stressful.

Point in case Money is stressful. i love spending it, but can't save it. hummmm. i need to work more.